Time

Today I feel specially drawn to the word 'Time'. I am sure my Father has pointed this very special word out to me, for reasons I know not why, but I will continue to ponder.

"Is there anything to be done?" the young man inquired as he looked on his sickly brother
"Wait." answered the Physician.
"Wait?" the young man said pouting his lips gently
"Time could do almost anything!" replied the wisened old Physician :)

He looked over at his heart broken friend "...But what can we do?" and looked back at the lady in front of him.
"Well He is young," she replied "and time is a great healer." then she begun to walk off "Or so atleast I am told" :)

:)

I want to be superwomen?

For me a lady is not just someone who looks good on a special occassion but someone who is functional who can crack open a jar of jam, host a dinner party, play with the kids in the rain, mudd and snow, read bed time stories all night long, going shopping, going to the park , doing school rounds, looking after the family, cooking gourmet meals well anything thats not chips or frozen or sugary, all this whilst looking good at the same time. I want even my bad days to be excellent and good.

I dont want to enter into a marriage without being ready! and that is why I am so grateful to God for this time of Preparation because I want to be the best wife my husband could ever want and I really want a marriage that Glorifies God.

I have a deep desire within myself to be a Lady..not an ornament to be stared at but someone who loves, cares and Cherishes her husband and entire family (massive prospects, I know). Being the best Wife and Mother that ever lived or that I was ever capable of being! (With God all things are very possible:) I am so in love with the future and with the present that the past is nothing more than what it is.

I want to be superwomen! "oh Lord please let me be superwomen":)

growing up

I do have such a strong desire to sit at the feet of Jesus and Worship Him all the days of my life. In many ways I want this desire to out weigh my desire to be married someday, nothing can compare to fellowship with the King! I would give up marriage any day so that I can worship Him for all time and beyond.

Letting Go..of your most treasured gift.

The Bible tells us in Psalms 55 vs 22:

Cast your burdens on the Lord [realising weight of it] and He will sustain you; He wil never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail).

Okay so first we need to have confidence (faith) that when we cast our burdens it will be removed from us and on to God. Don't wait or focus on feeling just believe. Once you have cast all your burdens or your most treatured gift. You must see that you have Peace (Peace that pass all understanding), Then Joy will follow! JOY JOY JOY!

When I was a little girl, somehow I was informed that God had a special boy, made just for me aka "the one" I was so happy. I believed this too my teens that God had a husband just for me, in my mid-teens I met a boy who I believed to be "the one" we had common interests like our faith in Jesus and he was super cute. Sadly after I read a book by a christian author who told me I had to go out and find a partner and that God having a chosen one for me was just a myth!!! In a way I was happy because somehow I liked the idea of picking my own husband and having full control!?

A while after reading this book I try to pick it up again and learn some more, but I just could not get beyond the first page, well I eventually ended up throwing that book away. Many years later I bought myself a book written by Stephanie Herzog this book has confirmed what I was told as a little girl that "yes God does have a chosen one just for you."

I am convinced that I have come across a guy who I believe could be Gods chosen one for me! Time and time again He has tried, I have tried to bring us together but it just has not happened. Why? Well perhaps God is so determined to put us together, and we are not going to change His mind, He wants to do the hard work ,rather than ourselves (I should be thanking Him:).


Its about surrendering, not giving up. It's about placing my trust in God, with my most treasured gift God has given me. Oh Boy..:) " I surrender"

letter

even if you dont write back, may God's Grace always rest on your shoulders. You are loved.

choose your path

I look at friends who have chosen their way in life already, that may be the party girl, the fashionista, motherhood, marriage, single life, the traveller, some have chosen to cling on to Jesus.I watch as I see my friends beginning their lives, Its although we have chosen the gun has gone off and we have just begun running the race of life.

I've chosen Jesus and even if I try to go on another path I can not, It is physically impossible.. and I am grateful, there is no other place I would rather be.. but slap dap in the middle of His palm.

Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. My Life is continually in my hand, yet I do not forget Your law. The wicked have laid a snare for me, yet I do not stray from Your precepts.

Psalm 119 vs 205 and 109-110

In love...for forever.

John 15 vs 5

I am the Vine: you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in Him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing.

you can not rush perfection

Will you join me on this Journey?

I am convinced a Life without Jesus is utterly pointless.

The Perfect Match

Have you ever had that one person in your life who was always there, who always matched you perfectly? to the very t, he matched you. Your life is seperate yet you walk to the same rythme, even though your hundreds of miles apart.

His the person who is like an annoying sore that you really want to scratch the scab off, instead you want to hug him and to love him and have him care about you--back; already.

Well I have someone like that he has just always been there..at times he went away for long periods in fact for years, but some how I always managed to be there again, standing in front of him. HIM Again.

As I stand there I have my many doubts and it all feels wrong as though he is not the one and I think I love him. Because everytime I hear his meeting up with another and not me I get jealous at the same time my doubts are confirmed and I feel reliefed. But deep down inside I wish it was me he was contacting, me he was wanting to see, ME.

But I could be wrong. It wouldn't be the first time, but hopefully it is the last time.

Love isn't a feeling, its a Decision

Keep In Touch...

Even I am now, convinced I am too good for you

A Broken Heart

The thing about a broken heart is you dont know if you'll be able to love again. The thing that hurts is you are afriad to love that same person again in the way you did before. Another thing is you feel more hurt when you realise you may have broken his heart in the very same way a drozen times and that kills you over even more.

I am so Pro- Life

Father, let Him stay

I sit, I sit and I stare because He is over there.

There is a holinesses to my hearts affections that is not fair,
at times I can hardly bare all the love I have for you, as i still and stare.

All the Love that is there.

I dont know what love is suppose to look like,
but, when I look at you my love for you renews
and I realise it could be you.
I will always love you and yes that is true.

Goodbye is what I continuiously try,
but somehow I manage to re-tie all my affections that laid so far behind.


"Dear Father forgive me...
I try to part but his struck on my heart..I am trying to let go that is a start.
Will You please help, help me to part; cause I know I am no longer in his heart.
I pushed him for a start, he ran away and didnt stay, I pushed him away.
I will forever dread the day, that I pushed the Love of My Life away.

Its been months all I can do is pray, pray that one day he will want to stay.
But for now his gone, his gone away.

I want to see him again, I want to see him stay and love me all my days until we are grey..

Father Love him, hold him to stay even though he doesnt know Your way.

Love him anyway, hold him and convince him to stay someday, any day will be okay."

Is today the day you stay.

My Brick Wall

There is not much that I can recall, but I do remember it all.
Like a flame I burnt unashamed; you are partly to be blamed, the other half I have already claimed.
My love undying coming to no end oh my Brick Wall if you only knew it all. There is nothing worse than my aching heart that longs for you; its missing part.

My heart still beats and my eyes still cry I can hardly tell you why?!
Days go by; while I cry as I attempt to wave bye bye, you always seem to come back no matter how hard I try.
I do pray your days will be okay and that someday you will meet the girl who you will let stay; for all your Days.

And so I sit hoping my Brick Wall would crumble and someday fall.
Not to be met with any harm non at all, but instead to know the shere inconvenience of loving my Brick Wall, there is nothing like it; nothing at all.
I just want you too love me, love me Brick Wall.

And so I call "Oh, Dear Lord loving my Brick Wall is no fun at all.
Oh Lord can you hear me, hear me at all?
I am desperate please crumble, crumble my Dear Brick Wall.
Because I love him, I love Him, I Love Him thats all."

and so sooner or later has come, i have thought of you and im not a mess. im just seriously thinking, pondering and hoping maybe we can give us another chance? the every realisation that you will stay away longer makes my blood run cold! but maybe your gone forever and thats what gets me to my feet again. stops me from running away with my hopeful imaginings of spending my days with you.

i hate cheating on God

because i Love Him so much

the Heart

the Heart is deceitful above all things, and it is exceedingly perverse and corrupt and severely, morally sick! who can know it, perceive, understand, be acquainted with his own heart and mind?

Jeremiah 17 vs 9

i don't trust the heart, as much as i use to.

Jesus

He is so perfect I can not even begin to comprehend...He loves you and me in our weakiness our humanity. In our shortcomings our failures, your frailities He loves us. And as we run this race for Him each time we fall He personally comes and pickes us up. All along the way He is cheering us on, He is there, He is nearer than we can even imagine. He becomes our strength, in our human weakiness He literally becomes our strength to keep on running and when we cant anymore He steps in depend on Him and Him alone.

A Passion for the Jews

I love my Messiah Jesus, He is my everything and each day that I spend with Him i have a growing desire to tell the Jewish people about their Messiah. A burning passion and flame has been ignited. I have a Passion for Israel.

I am a big fan of the program "Think it thru" which is presented by big bear or Michael Brown, this man is so smart i love listening to Him speak...He is truly an encouragement for me. I love his love for food, His passion for his People and most of all His belief and faith in the Messiah. What dynamic do i find the most beautiful in this world, it would have to be a Jewish person who finds the Messiah Jesus!. all i want is for them to take a closer look and see what i see, His true beautifulness there is nothing quite like it! He is marvellous there are no words to describe my King.

I want for all Israel to know their Christ (which means Messiah, i learnt this from Michael Brown), i want to go there some day, i have always had a passion and a wanting to go to Israel the holy land. It is amazing how information on Israel has just been put in my path and i have managed to build up a picture of the Nation each day my knowledge Grows and Grows

Eachtime i see Christians Worshipping Jesus, i think "i want to see Jewish people worshipping their Messiah like that" and all i want to do is take Him to them and present the Gospel to them. For we are to take the Gospel to the Jew first and then to the Gentile. But i can see myself getting struck on the Jewish people and staying there, i love this group of people so much. God save Israel! Bless Israel Lord let your Mighty hand remain fixed and steady on this Beautiful people, Your people and Your Land! Amen

come and worship HIM Jesus for He is Worthy.. to be Praised.. the earth is filled with His Glory

Worship-

Walking with God

There are times when we have great communion with the Creator of the Universe but then something huge like a mile stone takes places in your life and you find the plates have shifted so everything is out of place. So what I usually do is I say God where are you? it feels as though God is so far away and you wander how can you get Him back the way He was before this mile stone appeared on your horizon. But, one thing i have realised it's not about trying to get back to the great communion you had with the Creator but to keep on walking and its realising you have entered into a new area in your life. The Key is to just keep walking and not trying to run backward. So thats what I am doing I am going with the follow; as long as its forward.

It is totally all about having communion with God but at time He is trying to bring us into a new season of time but because we keep trying to hold on to what we had in Him before we tend to miss the wonderful things ahead. It is also key to wait for Him to draw you in rather than you begging and striving for His Presences. I think it is better to remain open to God and constantly having your ears open as you adjust to this new season you have entered into and when the time is right God will reveal what is occuring and what should happen next.

God is funny

Today i was really tired cause there is a lot going on in my life and He said to me bukarest. and instantly I though maybe God wants me to go to Bukarest to do missionary work, I even began to google it because i know theres a nation called bukarest. but, at the same time I'm thinking maybe God is saying book-a-rest! haha:) Go to sleep.

Furious Love

i watched the film furious love today, and it was one of those eye opening films that make you want to go out and make a difference in the world and makes you pledge your allegiance to Jesus all over again. its a wonderful thing.

then at the same time i sit back and think... oh man theres a world out there who needs Jesus and all I am doing is nothing.. BUT, Timing in Gods Kingdom is everything and i know the time to go and preach the Gospel has not yet come for me. and I am grateful for occasions like this because it is like a check up to see if my heart is still in the right place.. all I know is Jesus is Lord and the time to Go into all the world and tell them is nigh. Know it, Live it and Believe it.

He is Lord

i just want more of God, I want more knowledge of Him..more more more.

I can not wait for bible college. I promise to be the biggest geek for you God.

theres only one way to Heaven and thats through Believing in Jesus

Theres is a lot talk on how we get to Heaven and it hadn't occurred to me how important this was. good works is not going to get anyone into Heaven the only way is through JESUS, He is our way to God. It is only through Him. (this is such a cool image i found it on google)

nothing will stop the favour of the Lord

Rest in our the Savour

life is a lot like a train journey we think; we are convinced we are at our destination....then we open your eyes only to realise that your at the second to last stop.

we then close our eyes rest and fall back asleep almost; a deep slumber in fact one of the best train sleeps ever. within so pleased for those last moments of the journey we can relax pleased that wasn't your stop. it was a rather rude awakening with the rustle and bustle from commuters the awakening was abrupt, forceful and nothing calm and easy about it.

then 10 minutes go by your in a deep sleep you hear the conductor through the speaker. "Ladies and Gentlemen we have now reached our destination where this train terminates." and your open your eyes almost a dream all the sleepiness fade away and even though you were in a deep slumber you are more than ready for what lies ahead of you.

this happened to me on a train journey recently it taught me a lot about God's way, He is the conductor of the Train and all we have to do is rest in HIM when it is God it is effortless, there is no rude awakening. so many times we are convinced this is our destination but really it is not. so rest go back to sleep and don't worry He will wake you when the time comes and you will be more ready than you ever anticipated. (Rest= Preparation)

Upon this Rock I will build my house

Can you imagine getting the opportunity that Adam and Eve had, of starting a new some where, growing and developing a life together with God

accept Gods forgiveness and move on

i have learnt that you can not drive forward and keep looking in your rear view mirrors! sometimes, all the time the enemy tries to keep me focused on the mistakes that i may have done in the past. i spent and wasted alot of my months onces upon a time thinking about a particular boy that i meet in college. and every day i would reminsce and think over and over and over about him from the time i awoke to the time i was asleep i would fall asleep thinking of him and i refuse to get stuck in that trap again.

these old memories they just make me feel bad about myself, embarrassed and ashamed. and yes there are things we do and we can not undo them. but we can realise that was an old life old self but now i have a new life in Christ Jesus. and i hardly recognise that person that old self anymore, so i have stopped letting the enemy torment me with events from the past because well i have been forgiven and all i have to do is accept this wonderful gift. :) whoooowho

i am totally inspired by people who give there entire lives for Jesus, they all have this odour, this look. Its a look i want its an odour i want so much.

i love you people and you inspire me so much.
thank you for living such selfless lives that you make people like me want to walk in your foot steps. in gods plan and destiny for me

THANK YOU.

end times

If those days had not been cut short, no one would survive, but for the sake of the elect those days will be shortened.
Matthew 24 vs 22

News Report on the yahoo homepage today! "The powerful earthquake that killed hundreds of people in Chile on Saturday probably shifted the Earth's axis and made days slightly shorter, a Nasa scientist has said."

Reference: http://uk.news.yahoo.com/5/20100303/twl-powerful-chile-quake-shifted-earth-s-3fd0ae9.html

women of valor

Esther
“So I will go to the king, contrary to protocol. And if I perish, I perish.” (Esther 4:16)


A woman of secrets, of mystery, cloaking her true identity within many garbs, until her time arrived. A woman like the morning star, at that impossible place where the night becomes so dark it has nothing left but to reveal the dawn.


One who dared set foot in the innermost chamber of evil, raising Haman its prince to the pinnacle of glory, only that he should manufacture his demise.


When she ripped away her mask and her inner light burst forth, the façade of chance and coincidence and palace intrigue opened like a curtain to reveal wonders and miracles on their back stage. This way, Esther contains the final redemption, for she married miracle with mundane, discovering unbounded light within a cloud of darkness.

Last Word
Of the most lofty, enlightened souls, many had wives greater than themselves and daughters greater than their sons. So it was with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. So it was with Rabbi Akiva and Rabbi Meir. So it was with many great masters of the Kabala.


These great men, in their personal lives, were already tasting of the World to Come, when the quality of womanhood will loom over man.

Reference: http://www.jewish-holiday.com/biblewomen.html

No man is the answer, I am the answer

Chastisement, chastisement, chastisement. Ouch it hurtsssss...

teacup

I love the story about the couple who went into an antique shop one day and found a beautiful teacup sitting on a shelf. They took it off the shelf, so they could look at it more closely, and said, "we really want to buy this gorgeous cup."

And all of a sudden, the teacup began to takl, saying, "I wasnt always like this. There was a time when I was just a cold, hard, colourless lump of clay. One day my master picked me up and said, 'I could do something with this.' Then he started to pat me, and roll me, and change my shape.
"I said, 'What are are you doing? That hurts. I don't know if I want to look like this! Stop!' But he said, 'Not yet.'

"Then he put me on a wheel and began to spin me around and around and around, until I screamed, 'Let me off, I am getting dizzy!' 'Not yet,' he said.

"Then he shaped me into a cup and put me in a hot oven. I cried , 'Let me out! Its hot in here, I am suffocating.' But he just looked at me through that little glass window and smiled and said, 'Not yet.'

"When he took me out, I thought his work on me was over, but then he started to paint me. I couldn't believe what he did next. He put me back into the oven, and I said, 'You have to believe me, I can't stand this! Please let me out!" But he said 'Not yet.'

"Finally, he took me out of the oven and set me up on a shelf where I thoughr he had forgotten me. Then one day he took me off the shelf and held me before a beautiful teacup that everyone wants to buy."

Reference: Beauty for ashes by Joyce Meyer

His Champions

..and I saw the satanic princes in their battle dress standing in their chariots, directing the mass of of hellish battalions and powers and principalities. Then a great shofar was sounded and the fallen princes and generals took their places in front of the battalions, as the great rumbling of Satan's chariot thundered. And all as one they bowed their heads as the prince of darkness made his entrance.

And as he stood there- all terrible in his damnable, arragance and rebellion- he lifted his sword high to the heavenlies and again, as one man, I saw the princes and their battalions follow suit, and I heard Lucifer's spine- chilling cry: "It is TIME!" and and the hordes of hell resounded with a great and terrible cry: "It is TIME." And Lucifer turned to the fallen princes, I could hear his malicious hiss "IT IS TIME TO TARGET THE CHAMPIONS."


I could hardly decipher His words, such was His anguish that it was as though He was choking with grief:"My children are falling. It has begun." And still I could hardly make out His words for the great emotion that came from Him and the tears could not keep from falling down His cheeks as He came toward me: "The targeting of the Champions- My Father's champions here on Earth. The hosts of hell have been assigned for the past decades waiting for this hellish moment in the spirit realm, listening for the release of My End- Time move from Heaven. They heard the mighty rush of My holy angels, and in turn they have unleashed the most violent satanic assault that the Earth has yet seen since the days of My birth when Satan's wrath was unleased through Herod against the babes in arms in a huge murderous onslaught."

The Father does not base His love for His household on their gifting or talent or on those who in the world's eyes have so much to offer. But He has delighted to choose the foolish things of the Earth, for in His great and unfathomable wisdom He knew that those who have fully embraced the fact that without His love they are completely unqualified.

"The Father knows that these are the ones who will lean their minds and hearts unquestionably on His Being- those who limp with the scars of chastening and of their own inadequacy- those who know that within themselves there is no good thing except their hope in Him. These are His champions- and My daughter- these are the prime targets for the onslaught of the enemy that you have just seen."

Reference Journal of the Unknown Prophet

Gods Timing is impeccable

if your called your called!

Satan's dirty little secret

This is a book that I have just completed reading, I highly recommend it to you It will change your destiny it will change your life forever! The book is about the two demon spirits that gives power to every other demon spirit. Do not fall off your seat when you read this, the two giant demon spirits are insecurity and inferiority, they give power to every little demon spirit.

For example: pornography, drunkenness, drugs, hatred, violence, homosexuality, lust, fear are small and weak demon spirits you pray and it goes away, but it comes back. The reason for this because it is rooted in these two giant demon spirits insecurity and inferiority which gives them power. There is nothing to hard for God. We need to go deeper in God, where the revelation of Christ can be revealed, so we can find true freedom.

Hillsong United - Oh You Bring

Greatness is in your reach, the only thing holding you back; is yourself

Isaiah 41 vs 10

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

MorningStar WW3 - Like You Promised - Amber Brooks

MorningStar WW3 - After You - Josh Baldwin

I feel compelled with in myself to tell you about it.

2000 years ago a man called Jesus, He claimed to be the Son of God, He did many miracles according the bible. The religious people hated Him because according to them He was blaspheming against the One True God and they wanted to kill Him. He preached all over Israel then known as Palestine for 3 years, eventually one of His disciples betrayed Him into the hands of the religious pharisees for a mere 30 pieces of silver. They arrested Jesus and it begun, they whipped Him until flesh came off His body, put a thorn crown on His head which dug into His brain and hailed Him as the King of the Jews. They then let Him carry His cross to Golgotha, once there they pinned Him to the cross, one nail in each hand and another in both feet. He died on the cross, then put in a tomb near by, He rose three days later.

He had one purpose, one mission when He came to this earth and that was to die on that cross and to preach the gospel; to take away the sins of all the world so that people like you and me, can have eternal life and not pay the penalty for our sin but instead be forgiven. Its all about making a decision to believe that He is the Son of God, to believe in the sacrifice and that He rose from the dead 3 days later and is now seated in Heavenly places at God's right hand.

If I didn't believe in Jesus and I died today, I would spend all eternity separated from God in a place that was not made for me but for the fallen angels and their ring master the initator of all evil. But, because I believe in Jesus I have been forgiven of all my sins and therefore will spend all of eternity with Him.

Now you know, the decision is yours.

living in the Spirit

Many of us worry and care about our outward appearance way to much and I believe its time to realise that appearance is not what is of importance, in fact its of least importance. Specially in churches, I for one am big on the fashion, I have in the past judged people based on their clothing style but, I believe there is coming a time when people like my self wont fixate on appearance, its all about the Spirit, people are going to worship God in Spirit and in Truth John 4vs 24. The reason why I say "fixate on appearance" is because we myself included should still look presentable and take care of the bodies God has given us but not make that our number one priority. I believe what should be of importance and priority are things like reading the bible becoming aware of the truth which will make us free, getting into the Secret Place (or some may say, the Holy Of Holies)and edifying the spirit man by praying in English (or which ever language you speak) and In the language of Angels (Tongues). Worship is of importance (Thanks Giving), connect with a ministries teaching to learn more and get more knowledge (ask God which ministry you should connect with, I have several). Tithe God doesn't want our money, but He wants to reward us and bless us thats why we give. This is what is of importance I believe, not whose wearing the coolest outfit at church or on any other day, oh mann those things need to be last on our minds, I can not even imagine the difference this way of thinking and living will do for the end time church, we are the end time church. We would be open vessels for God He would then be able to work through us, use us for His Glory, beyond anything that we can imaging. GOD get our eyes off ourselves and on to you so we can see Your Kingdom come and Your will be done on Earth and it is in Heaven.

His Glory Appears - Hillsong Faith + Hope + Love

Billy Graham: Technology and Faith

Speaking at TED in 1998, Rev. Billy Graham marvels at technology's power to improve lives and change the world -- but says the end of evil, suffering and death will come only after the world accepts Christ. A legendary talk from TED's archives.

The Rev. Billy Graham is a religious leader with a worldwide reach. In his long career as an evangelist, he has spoken to millions and been an advisor to US presidents.

Proverbs 3 vs 5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

end times

I have saved the best for last

just because you cant see something doesn’t mean its not there and that it don’t exist, its there.

1 corinthians 13 vs 11

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a woman, I put childish ways behind me.

Hillsong - With Everything - With Subtitles/Lyrics

WITH EVERYTHING ACOUSTIC - HILLSONG WITH LYRICS

I am a representative of Jesus Christ

mother: where did you get thoughs boots?

me: primark,

mother: where did you get that coat?

me: primark, "yes I am a representative of primark",

I then thought to myself....I am a representative of Christ. question popped up, I am a representative of Christ

2 Corinthians 5 vs 20

²⁰We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God.

Hillsong United - Tear Down The Walls

I never dreamed I would be closing the door on on of my greatest loves at the beginning of the year 2010, the sooner I GET OVER HIM THE BETTER. SO that I can focus on what is truly important and that is JESUS THE JEW MESSIAH. :)

Hillsong United - Your Name High