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A Broken Heart

The thing about a broken heart is you dont know if you'll be able to love again. The thing that hurts is you are afriad to love that same person again in the way you did before. Another thing is you feel more hurt when you realise you may have broken his heart in the very same way a drozen times and that kills you over even more.

I am so Pro- Life

Father, let Him stay

I sit, I sit and I stare because He is over there.

There is a holinesses to my hearts affections that is not fair,
at times I can hardly bare all the love I have for you, as i still and stare.

All the Love that is there.

I dont know what love is suppose to look like,
but, when I look at you my love for you renews
and I realise it could be you.
I will always love you and yes that is true.

Goodbye is what I continuiously try,
but somehow I manage to re-tie all my affections that laid so far behind.


"Dear Father forgive me...
I try to part but his struck on my heart..I am trying to let go that is a start.
Will You please help, help me to part; cause I know I am no longer in his heart.
I pushed him for a start, he ran away and didnt stay, I pushed him away.
I will forever dread the day, that I pushed the Love of My Life away.

Its been months all I can do is pray, pray that one day he will want to stay.
But for now his gone, his gone away.

I want to see him again, I want to see him stay and love me all my days until we are grey..

Father Love him, hold him to stay even though he doesnt know Your way.

Love him anyway, hold him and convince him to stay someday, any day will be okay."

Is today the day you stay.

My Brick Wall

There is not much that I can recall, but I do remember it all.
Like a flame I burnt unashamed; you are partly to be blamed, the other half I have already claimed.
My love undying coming to no end oh my Brick Wall if you only knew it all. There is nothing worse than my aching heart that longs for you; its missing part.

My heart still beats and my eyes still cry I can hardly tell you why?!
Days go by; while I cry as I attempt to wave bye bye, you always seem to come back no matter how hard I try.
I do pray your days will be okay and that someday you will meet the girl who you will let stay; for all your Days.

And so I sit hoping my Brick Wall would crumble and someday fall.
Not to be met with any harm non at all, but instead to know the shere inconvenience of loving my Brick Wall, there is nothing like it; nothing at all.
I just want you too love me, love me Brick Wall.

And so I call "Oh, Dear Lord loving my Brick Wall is no fun at all.
Oh Lord can you hear me, hear me at all?
I am desperate please crumble, crumble my Dear Brick Wall.
Because I love him, I love Him, I Love Him thats all."

and so sooner or later has come, i have thought of you and im not a mess. im just seriously thinking, pondering and hoping maybe we can give us another chance? the every realisation that you will stay away longer makes my blood run cold! but maybe your gone forever and thats what gets me to my feet again. stops me from running away with my hopeful imaginings of spending my days with you.