Time

Today I feel specially drawn to the word 'Time'. I am sure my Father has pointed this very special word out to me, for reasons I know not why, but I will continue to ponder.

"Is there anything to be done?" the young man inquired as he looked on his sickly brother
"Wait." answered the Physician.
"Wait?" the young man said pouting his lips gently
"Time could do almost anything!" replied the wisened old Physician :)

He looked over at his heart broken friend "...But what can we do?" and looked back at the lady in front of him.
"Well He is young," she replied "and time is a great healer." then she begun to walk off "Or so atleast I am told" :)

:)

I want to be superwomen?

For me a lady is not just someone who looks good on a special occassion but someone who is functional who can crack open a jar of jam, host a dinner party, play with the kids in the rain, mudd and snow, read bed time stories all night long, going shopping, going to the park , doing school rounds, looking after the family, cooking gourmet meals well anything thats not chips or frozen or sugary, all this whilst looking good at the same time. I want even my bad days to be excellent and good.

I dont want to enter into a marriage without being ready! and that is why I am so grateful to God for this time of Preparation because I want to be the best wife my husband could ever want and I really want a marriage that Glorifies God.

I have a deep desire within myself to be a Lady..not an ornament to be stared at but someone who loves, cares and Cherishes her husband and entire family (massive prospects, I know). Being the best Wife and Mother that ever lived or that I was ever capable of being! (With God all things are very possible:) I am so in love with the future and with the present that the past is nothing more than what it is.

I want to be superwomen! "oh Lord please let me be superwomen":)

growing up

I do have such a strong desire to sit at the feet of Jesus and Worship Him all the days of my life. In many ways I want this desire to out weigh my desire to be married someday, nothing can compare to fellowship with the King! I would give up marriage any day so that I can worship Him for all time and beyond.

Letting Go..of your most treasured gift.

The Bible tells us in Psalms 55 vs 22:

Cast your burdens on the Lord [realising weight of it] and He will sustain you; He wil never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail).

Okay so first we need to have confidence (faith) that when we cast our burdens it will be removed from us and on to God. Don't wait or focus on feeling just believe. Once you have cast all your burdens or your most treatured gift. You must see that you have Peace (Peace that pass all understanding), Then Joy will follow! JOY JOY JOY!

When I was a little girl, somehow I was informed that God had a special boy, made just for me aka "the one" I was so happy. I believed this too my teens that God had a husband just for me, in my mid-teens I met a boy who I believed to be "the one" we had common interests like our faith in Jesus and he was super cute. Sadly after I read a book by a christian author who told me I had to go out and find a partner and that God having a chosen one for me was just a myth!!! In a way I was happy because somehow I liked the idea of picking my own husband and having full control!?

A while after reading this book I try to pick it up again and learn some more, but I just could not get beyond the first page, well I eventually ended up throwing that book away. Many years later I bought myself a book written by Stephanie Herzog this book has confirmed what I was told as a little girl that "yes God does have a chosen one just for you."

I am convinced that I have come across a guy who I believe could be Gods chosen one for me! Time and time again He has tried, I have tried to bring us together but it just has not happened. Why? Well perhaps God is so determined to put us together, and we are not going to change His mind, He wants to do the hard work ,rather than ourselves (I should be thanking Him:).


Its about surrendering, not giving up. It's about placing my trust in God, with my most treasured gift God has given me. Oh Boy..:) " I surrender"

letter

even if you dont write back, may God's Grace always rest on your shoulders. You are loved.

choose your path

I look at friends who have chosen their way in life already, that may be the party girl, the fashionista, motherhood, marriage, single life, the traveller, some have chosen to cling on to Jesus.I watch as I see my friends beginning their lives, Its although we have chosen the gun has gone off and we have just begun running the race of life.

I've chosen Jesus and even if I try to go on another path I can not, It is physically impossible.. and I am grateful, there is no other place I would rather be.. but slap dap in the middle of His palm.

Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. My Life is continually in my hand, yet I do not forget Your law. The wicked have laid a snare for me, yet I do not stray from Your precepts.

Psalm 119 vs 205 and 109-110

In love...for forever.

John 15 vs 5

I am the Vine: you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in Him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing.

you can not rush perfection

Will you join me on this Journey?

I am convinced a Life without Jesus is utterly pointless.

The Perfect Match

Have you ever had that one person in your life who was always there, who always matched you perfectly? to the very t, he matched you. Your life is seperate yet you walk to the same rythme, even though your hundreds of miles apart.

His the person who is like an annoying sore that you really want to scratch the scab off, instead you want to hug him and to love him and have him care about you--back; already.

Well I have someone like that he has just always been there..at times he went away for long periods in fact for years, but some how I always managed to be there again, standing in front of him. HIM Again.

As I stand there I have my many doubts and it all feels wrong as though he is not the one and I think I love him. Because everytime I hear his meeting up with another and not me I get jealous at the same time my doubts are confirmed and I feel reliefed. But deep down inside I wish it was me he was contacting, me he was wanting to see, ME.

But I could be wrong. It wouldn't be the first time, but hopefully it is the last time.